Friday, April 15, 2011

5.45AM

I do think I have a pretty smile and that my eyes are lovely. I am my own favourite and I think I am beautiful in my own way.

But, I am suddenly not liking myself. I do not smile at myself in the mirror anymore. Everything about my life is going wrong. Most relationships, work, health, art ..well thats sums up my life.

I have to make everything good again. I need to begin this by becoming an early riser. Its becoming harder by the day since I have late night calls at ungodly hours. I am becoming addicted to the snooze button. I cannot move in the mornings. I do not have the inclination to wake up.

But I NEED to wake up early. Else I feel dirty about myself.

Crib over. What am I going to DO?
1. Sleep early (with happy thoughts) and get good rest.
2. I am going to buy myself a pretty alarm clock in pink colour, that rings loud and am going to keep it in the next room. So that I wake up , walk that distance and switch it off.
3. Try not saying "2 minutes please" everytime someone wakes me up
4. Jump out of the bed everymorning and think "Today is going to be a good day".

What do I need from you?
Help. Support. Love and if possible a Good morning call at 5.45AM.  If you want to be my alarm buddy, send me an email. I will gladly give you my number!

PS: do not ask me what time I wake up these days. I am not going to tell you anyways.

5 comments:

vai said...

5.45am is too early(for me)!!! sorry can`t do!!

Vasumathi Sridharan said...

@Vai, np. Thanks for the comment though :)

@Vasumathi,
Good going. I like the fact that you are making an attempt. 6.15 is not so bad after all.

Anonymous said...

Vasumathi: a suggestion about the waking up tired/ bored tendency... try to get 2 waking hours between dinner (or supper) and going to bed. During those two hours, a. do not eat anything and b. think lazily about how you are going to change the world the next day (lazily: dont try too hard - watch TV, read a book, and let your mind wander to tomorrow).

Vasumathi Sridharan said...

Aww. Sweet. Thanks for that idea. But who you are?

Anonymous said...

Me? Anonymous. You dont know me (and I dont know you), so it does not matter. As an aside, it is amazing what people will say "Aww. Sweet" to. The suggestion was sincere.