Friday, April 15, 2011

5.45AM

I do think I have a pretty smile and that my eyes are lovely. I am my own favourite and I think I am beautiful in my own way.

But, I am suddenly not liking myself. I do not smile at myself in the mirror anymore. Everything about my life is going wrong. Most relationships, work, health, art ..well thats sums up my life.

I have to make everything good again. I need to begin this by becoming an early riser. Its becoming harder by the day since I have late night calls at ungodly hours. I am becoming addicted to the snooze button. I cannot move in the mornings. I do not have the inclination to wake up.

But I NEED to wake up early. Else I feel dirty about myself.

Crib over. What am I going to DO?
1. Sleep early (with happy thoughts) and get good rest.
2. I am going to buy myself a pretty alarm clock in pink colour, that rings loud and am going to keep it in the next room. So that I wake up , walk that distance and switch it off.
3. Try not saying "2 minutes please" everytime someone wakes me up
4. Jump out of the bed everymorning and think "Today is going to be a good day".

What do I need from you?
Help. Support. Love and if possible a Good morning call at 5.45AM.  If you want to be my alarm buddy, send me an email. I will gladly give you my number!

PS: do not ask me what time I wake up these days. I am not going to tell you anyways.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Its about time.

I have had enough.
Enough of mopping around.
Enough of cribbing.
Enough of feeling blue.

EVERYTHING has being going wrong for the past few days.
Time to take matters into my hands. To hell with everyone who is making me feel down and out.

Time to make workout fun.
Time to make cooking fun (will start by remembering to add salt into whatever I cook).
Time to enjoy painting (Colors, here I come!).
Time to learn music well (and stop getting yelled at in every class {infront of 10 year olds} ).
Time to Write something decent and STOP blaming the writer's block.
Time for a good sappy romantic novel. Nicolas Sparks, Please release the new book soon!
Time for an outing. Yay!!
Time to be back into people's lives and spam them till they are weeping!
Time for a spring cleaning session.
Time for some shopping and seeing the look on husband's face on reading the bill amount.
Time for curtain shopping (I can imagine the husband saying "Again? How many curtains do you want?")
But, right now, Its time for some dark chocolate!

Its about time. Dont you think?